Yes, I have decided that ballet is for skinny chicks not me. But I want to do it, so i'm still going to do it.
Does that mean working out more? yes.
Does that mean eating less? well I haven't decided yet.
Of course the correct answer would be to eat healthy, and foods that are positive, and not so much carbs. Which in my case is every meal. Perhaps I will stop eating carbs, and eat more things like green apples. or celery. I was told that if you eat things like green apples it will take more energy to eat them than they are worth in calories or what not. So i'll probably eat two a day, that way i'll not only be skinny but invisible as well in two weeks or so.
So ballet really hurts, and is painfull. My legs feel like I weigh 400 pounds, my butt hurts, my thighs hurt, my legs look fat in tights.
BUT I will show up everyday, and work on things, and try to feel more comfortable in my own skin. So I won't give into eating disorders, as much as I dearly want to.
If ballet's going to give me this much hell, i'm giving it hell back.
Although ballet probably doesn't realize this that much.
I need to register for school, I would like to go to san diego. Too bad i'm poor.
