I try to be spiritual but it's very hard. I've always read how Jesus was, and when you get to the core of the matter he loved people. You know that kid at school, who is just so annoying. Jesus loved them. Jessica Grace does not.
If you are trying to change how you are on the outside, like I am, you better look in. It's like that whole what you put in, comes out. One way or the other. Anyways, I decided I need to love people. And it's been very hard. All I have learned is that I am very hateful. I really look out for myself only. Just look at what I've written so far almost ten I's. Me. Me. Me. Me. Me.
Can you love others, and still be self centered? These anarchist kids started talking to me after the decision to honestly love others was made. Let me tell you, I wanted to be a crazy person on them. I was ready to punch them in the face. I got over it. I realized these were people, and people can change. Therefore these angry anarchist kids are just normal growing humans who will one day look back and realize that yelling at innocent truth seekers is not the way.
I use to yell at people a lot. Then I realized yelling does nothing but push people away. Try a little kindness, try love. Everyone says it, posters say it. T-shirts. slogans. songs. It's a lot harder than it sounds.
Right now, I'm working on loving people.
